Lover. Friend. Enemy.

If I say I am falling apart
It would only be an understatement
If I say I am reliving separation
It would only mean its an illusion
If I say that I fell in love just overnight yet again
I wouldn’t be lying
If I say that the love left me the same night
I would say it with surety
If I say that I saw the same dreams yet again
I wouldn’t say I wasn’t happy
If I say that the same dreams were broken overnight
I cant be sure of not crying over them
If I say that he became traitor in a night
I wouldn’t be blaming him
If I say that I saw him only in a mask
Ii would only be stating facts
If I say that he was unmasked overnight
I would say it with conviction
If I say he use his power on me only in a few seconds
I would only be reiterating his strength
If I say he came and filled a void in my life
I would confess that he really did
If I say that he gave me a sweet poison like he did before
I would be hating him
If I say that I loved him for loving me like he did
I would only be loving him
If I say that he turned out to be like he was once
I would only feel the pain
If I say that he tore me apart like he did once
I would be saying the truth
If I say that I didn’t sleep last night because of tears in my eyes
I wouldn’t have said anything else with more truth
If I say I have broken down completely and lost all strength to love
I know I will be correct
If I say that I have been deceived yet again
I know there is no bigger truth
If I say I have stopped loving
I would be a little unsure
But when I call him a Brutus, like he was once
I would be filled with rage while saying this

But I know he was……
Always…….over that one night which changed it all…
Or so I want to believe…
A Traitor. A lover. A friend. An enemy.

I hate you like I never hated him.
But I hate YOU….

Afterthought: the last phrase is only anger in its full manifestation. I know hate is too strong a word. I cant hate, something I know. Yet I chose to write it. Yes I know anger differs from hated in many forms but somewhere the difference blurs…….and when the difference blurred, came this piece of writing…